Lazy Sunday's are the best!!
This is the first time in a long time that Connor and I have been home with nothing to do. It seems like we are either out of town or busy with something, and the weekends fly right past us before we know it.
Today, however, we got up early, got dressed, and went to church. Haven't done that in awhile. And it felt good. I need to get back. I need to get back so I can be a good example to my son, and be the kind of man Ash would want me to be. Connor is what I have left of her, and I love him more than my own life. I see her in him every day, and I remember the promises we made each other. I want to see her again. I want to be worthy to see her again.
In Elder's Quorum today, the lesson was on our wives and how to honor them. And I listened to the Elders talk about their wives and how we should treat them, and do things for them to make them happy, and how not to take things for granted, and how they were so happy to not be single, and how they wouldn't know what to do without their wives...and...I wanted to scream!!
Not because I was mad, but because I feel the same way they do, and I miss being able to do those things for my wife.
Someday, I would love to get married again. I would love to have someone to share the rest of my life with. Someone who could be like a mom to Connor. Who knows when that day will be? What I do know, is that I want to be ready for it when it comes.
I will always love Ashley...with every fiber of my being I will love her. But love, in God's plan, leaves room for happiness when there has been a loss...and I can't wait to love somebody like that again.