TGIF!

I love Fridays!! Great to have a day that welcomes in the weekend. And we finally have some sun today as well...we've had rain almost every day for the last couple of weeks it seems.

I guess because it was raining, I had some time to do things around the house I wouldn't have normally done...like finally taking all my digital pictures out of our camera and moving them to the computer. In doing so, I found a really cool picture of Ashley swinging on a swing with Connor when he was probably two. She looks so beautiful... She looks at peace...

Anyway, this picture opened up an opprotunity for me and my son to talk about some of the things we loved most about mommy. He loved to play with her hair. But truth be told, so did I. He said he remembered her giving him his bottles before bed, and watching cartoons. I remembered going to the gas station to get a treat sometimes when it was late at night...hence the TGIF since I didn't have to get up early on Saturday morning.

As I think back on Ashley...it's the little, non-significant things that I remember. I love her so much...and I miss her so much. My advice to you: Tell the ones you love that you love them!! Today!! Give them hugs and treats, and do non-significant things that you'll remember forever. That is what life is all about!

Love you Ash-

Vacation

So Connor and I took a little vacation down to Southern Utah as sort of a "boys getaway" this past week. I thought it would be fun to hike all the places I used to when I was his age. He wanted to stay at the hotel and swim in the pool.



We had a lot of fun and saw a lot of places that I had not seen in several years, and Connor got to see all those places for the first, hopefully not the last, time. And even though it was a "boys getaway," I felt myself longing to share with Ashley all the things we saw and did. I always spoke to her about how beautiful So. Utah is and how I should take her to see it. Sadly, that was one of the many things we never got to do before she passed.



One of the things I am learning, is how short life truely is. We had all these grand plans that we wanted to do and complete. Now, my grand plan is to raise my son so that he turns out normal.



But even with all it's unexpected turns, life is still amazing. Every day I look at Connor and see his momma staring back at me...and every day, I try to get closer to the kind of man and father Ashley would want me to be. It's hard, but I love my life right now. I miss her deeply, but I love being my son's dad. I am truely grateful to Ashley for choosing me.

By the way...4 year olds love to wipe their dirty feet all over the clean seats in the car. Next time, we're taking our pick-up. That thing is made for 4 year old feet!